Sunday, April 12, 2009

The Toon of Three Thoughts

So here I sit. Staring at a screen, with what I’m supposed to believe is a sound introduction to (supposedly) one of the most important papers I’ve ever written.

The future looks bleak. At least to me.

I mean, I’m sure it’s not that bad, and it’s not the introduction that scares me as much as the multiple paragraphs that must follow it.

I’m still trying to wrap my mind around the exact, perfect, interesting, and painfully specific direction I want my research to go.

Not to mention the fact that I awake almost every morning to the toon of three thoughts: 1) uggg, school again/uggg, track again 2) what is this thing poking me in the back, oh wait, that’s my dog… and 3) I need to find somebody to interview for my junior theme!!

It’s like this little feeling down in my chest that keeps me in a constant state of anxiety, and it doesn’t help when I look at the calendar and realize I have two more weekends to pull this together.

Excuse me!?

Oh and one more thing, the fact that I’m an independent learning that would probably learn about writing this paper by jumping off a bridge than by going in for help, frustrates me, especially when I realize my fourth quarter grade rests upon my ability to keep in touch with my teachers.

I need a hard slap in the face. I shouldn’t be sitting here venting to my American Studies blog. I should be doing something productive!

The million dollar question though, is what.

1 comment:

Judy Gressel said...

Jackie,
Procrastination is the mother of anxiety.
1)A good place to start is to annotate the good sources you already have. This way you can sort through the research and develop a map of ideas to explore.
2) Annotation will lead to an understanding of where your holes are in the research.
3) This will all lead to developing a thesis..and to some good paragraphs.
4) Dig more to get support for your claim.
Look for this article in Gale Virtual Reference Library:
Lucas, Phillip Charles. "New Religious Movements." It will help you with your map.
5) Try this search:
researchers prefer to use the more neutral term 'new religious movement' (NRM) to refer to those groups in particular that emerged and came to prominence in the west after about 1960....hope this helps.